My Time Has Come

Today marks 19 days until I hit 40 years old. I am actually not concerned with the number, I am more concerned with what I am doing with the time while the numbers fly by. I know I do things, miss things, fail, and succeed. Life is such a cool experience in my shoes. Different people, different cultures, amazingly different interests, and astounding family plowing through all the stuff to see the big picture. I am no different than those around me but I never really pay attention deeply enough to what I touch. I say, direct, aide, hinder, or whatever, and then move on to the next stop. Over the past year I have realized that I need to savor what I do, what I enjoy, but I feel that I just push it back into the mind and let it go. That led me to the idea of saving it somewhere. I could diary my life but we all know that I will not carry it with me. I need to know that someone will read my life so I must put it out there so I have the pressure to respond. To put myself under the pressure of succeeding in my own mind I have decided to blog my daily happenings. Please understand that I will bore you, anger you, disappoint you, and possibly astound you at times. Also remember that this is for my reference but I am sharing to put the pressure on myself to actually do it. I ask so much of everyone around me that I feel I must also be willing to sacrifice. Lead by example. So starting May 1, 2012 through May 19, 2013 I will report what I accomplish, do, get into, and what I struggle through. No different than anybody just want to record it for my own pleasure.