Hello, I'm Home

Well that didn’t take long. I missed a day on this paper journey. I did so because I was actually being the dad and husband I miss out on throughout the year. Was it exciting, awe inspiring, a day I will never forget, or a wild adventure? It depends who you ask. What does it mean to be a good dad and husband at my house? It means that I’m here and actually present. It means that I’m not glued to the computer, stuck on the phone, or focused on whatever racing I can locate on the flat screen. To me it was completely exciting. I got to keep the dream of being a cowboy alive. Yeah, I know, I only held some horses and sunk some poles in the ground for cross tie purposes. But, I did get to wear my boots and worn out jeans. It is always awe inspiring because I am amazed that such large animals will do what these ladies in my life tell them to. Oh wait, that shouldn’t surprise me, I am just like those horses. I do the same thing just without the harness and lunge line. How about that super moon? It was really cool to see that thing pop up over the tree line while the darkness began to surround the barn. How could I ever forget a day like yesterday? It was Cinco de Mayo. Really, that doesn’t matter one bit. What mattered was that I had great plans to go out for a dinner date with my wife and enjoy some Mexican libations. What happened instead, a great meal of all you can eat ribs and sweet tea with the ladies and the in-laws. The cool thing about that was that moment was probably more like me anyway. After stuffing ourselves it was time for the rest of the date……Supercross live on Speed. Now, before you think I am contradicting myself about watching the flat screen please realize that my family was built around racing and my wife will watch and sleep just like my dad enjoys a good race. Wild adventure may have been the only thing that was missing from today but three out of four ain’t bad. Being a dad and a husband have not always been the easiest roles for me to fill. My life overshadows those roles many times and I miss a lot of those things that others see as important. Is it sad that my daughter gets excited because I get to take her to school? Well for other families maybe but for ours it is normal. It is the time where she and I get to catch up on what is going on. Those moments are precious pieces of time that I embrace as exciting and awe inspiring. No distractions from anybody else and just the two of us getting to be real about being daddy and daughter make those mornings normal. Yes, I missed the journey on this blog but I will never apologize because being a husband, daddy, friend, and ranch hand were where it was at yesterday. If I never apologize for being me to my wife, my daughter, my family, and my friends, I cannot apologize to something that will never show me the love I get from the others. Go out today and work your ranch and enjoy what is out there. This will wait.